Wednesday, June 16, 2004

My face





I have a problem with body image. I was an overweight child and have been overweight for most of my 40 years. Not extremely overweight. Just plump, or chubby. Any way you call it, whether you're trying to make it sound good (pleasantly plump) or bad (butterball, one of my dad's nicknames for me) - it still sounds bad. Because of my poor body image, I tend to avoid mirrors. I don't have a mirror in the bedroom, I just never got around to getting one. I put on my makeup in the morning using the mirror of my compact. While putting on my makeup one morning, I noticed that I really like how I look in the compact. I realized I have nice eyes and lips. My nose isn't bad. I realized I am pretty and I feel pretty when I see part of myself in the small, round mirror. So why don't I like the whole picture, the whole face? Maybe it has more to do with how I feel about myself than how I actually look? Improving my body image is a mountain I will someday climb but I think first I will work on the small staircase of improving my poor face image one round mirrored step at a time.


5 comments:

Anonymous said...

i hear ya. you do have a lovely eye though! :-)

-kat

Anonymous said...

I'm going to say something honest and direct: to me, beauty has almost nothing to do with the face or body. True, at first, that's all a person sees. Gradually, WHO A PERSON IS - whether you're good and strong as a person, your character - begins to dominate as the factor of whether a person is seen as beautiful. I posted about this on Book of Life Jan 9th "Britney Spears...Sexy?" (http://bookoflife.blogs.com/welcome/2004/01/britney_spears.html) Consider this perspective, which I believe is at work in the world, as you deal with your problem of body image. Best wishes - Denny

Holly Miller said...

Thanks Kat and Denny. :)

Denny, I agree with you--and that is how I feel about other people. I try never to judge on looks. But I am different with myself. Not productive behavior. Thanks for pointing it out to me.

Anonymous said...

Being a woman is a glorious gift.I have enjoyed discovering my self through the years; sometimes I feel like a good wine:with time I look better...Beauty is so much more than long legs and full lips; I am convinced that it is the inner confidence,the acceptance of one's being,and the discovery of one's strong qualities-both physical and spiritual.I will never stop improving myself-makeup,body,hair,nails...but at the same time, I will also imrpove my sense for beauty in other areas: a beautyfully deacorated home, visits to the Art museum, long walks in the country,quality time with my three sons, and a concient effort to notice beauty everywhere...
I wish you a never ending journey to the Wonderful World of Beauty...
*Ima*

Holly Miller said...

Thanks Ima. You are very wise!