I did get my hair cut and highlighted on Wed. Here is the newer me.
Friday, July 2, 2004
Few posts
There have been few posts of late. It is not because I don't have anything to say. I write posts in my head all the time. I just haven't felt like sitting down and writing them. For the last week I have been either lazing around or racing around. Today was definately a racing around day. Work was busy with students taking up the whole day. This evening I am preparing for my trip to PA for my family reunion. Running around packing, buying last minute necessities, returning library books and resting from the day's work. I will leave early (~5 AM) tomorrow and spend a few days with my sister after the reunion. I may write while I am away or not.
I did get my hair cut and highlighted on Wed. Here is the newer me.
I did get my hair cut and highlighted on Wed. Here is the newer me.
God with a fish on her head
Today I had a problem
A big problem
All the stuff that makes your head spin
Lost love, betrayal, anger and pain
Guilt and fear – the whole game
I sat for hours
By a window, on a chair
I paged through holy books
I meditated inside myself
Breathing in and out
In and out
And I prayed
In a searching way
Not
Now I lay me...
Then
I looked up at the curtain
And there she was
God with a fish growing out of her head
August 1997
Sunday, June 27, 2004
Does a flower struggle?
During his dharma talk today, my teacher reiterated that when one gives herself to a flower, the flower also gives itself, they become one and then there is no separation, no self, no flower. I began to think about this and jokingly thought it wasn't very fair that I have to struggle so much to give myself to the flower so I can become one with the flower but then the flower gets to become one with me after no work at all. I asked my teacher, "Does the flower struggle with me as I struggle?" Another wise student said that I am the one who sees the flower separate from myself, so I am the one who has to struggle. Aahh. I see.
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